When I received the stomach cancer diagnosis, my mind went blank for a moment.

　　In fact, everything had signs.

　　It started with nights of stomach pain.

　　From school uniforms to wedding dresses, five years of marriage had exhausted all our emotions.

　　Lying on the same bed, he always turned away from me, leaving me with an icy cold back.

　　Even if he turned around to look at me, he would have seen how much pain I was in.

　　The phone lit up inappropriately, and I absentmindedly opened it.

　　In the video, a beautiful girl was pulling on Jiang Yu's collar and kissed him on the face.

　　He indulged her mischief and laughed in an unrestrained manner.

　　The girl's smile was so much like the younger me.

　　Ah, I had almost forgotten how long it had been since I last smiled.

　　For a moment, I remembered how he used to look at me like that, like a bright light, illuminating my dark student days.

　　The 18-year-old Jiang Yu had said firmly, "Su Su, don't be afraid.

　　I will protect you for a lifetime." A lifetime is a long time, and I believed him.

　　Even though I knew that the 30-year-old Jiang Yu no longer loved me, I greedily held onto his past goodness, preferring to torment each other rather than let go.

　　But at this moment, I suddenly felt bored.

　　I didn't want to die and have his name engraved on my tombstone.

　　Without any hesitation, I endured the faint stomach pain and drove to the bar where Jiang Yu and his brother often went.

　　When I pushed open the private room, the girl had lost the game again.

　　Jiang Yu was quite drunk, swaying his head slightly, leaning down towards the girl, and pointing at his own cheek with his slender finger, indicating for her to kiss him.

　　I was so familiar with this gesture.

　　In the past, every time Jiang Yu was sad, he would lower his head, pointing to his cheek with his index finger.

　　I stood on tiptoes to kiss his cheek, and he embraced me tightly, burying his head in the side of my neck.

　　Tall and thin, he used a nasal voice to act spoiled, "Su Su, recharge." At that time, his heart and eyes were truly filled with me.

　　How did we end up like this, even though we loved each other so much? I couldn't understand it no matter how much I thought about it.

　　I didn't want to find the answers anymore.