I am a daughter, and my parents were greatly disappointed.

　　But they didn't give up.

　　They hid and evaded like thieves.

　　When I was five years old, my mother finally gave birth to a younger brother.

　　Because of the exceeding childbirth limit, my father lost his job.

　　Our house was also emptied.

　　My mother lay on a bed made of two door panels and looked at my brother in the crib, smiling and saying: "Finally, I don't have to get pregnant again." My grandmother happily held my brother and said: "Give birth to another son so that in the future, your talented brother will have support from his siblings." My name, Guicai, was chosen while my mother was pregnant.

　　Now it's finally being used.

　　My grandmother was delighted to have a grandson and proudly showed him off to the whole village.

　　After showing off, she threw him back to my mother.

　　She forced my parents to have a son but never helped take care of him.

　　My father lost his job and our family was struggling.

　　During my postpartum confinement, my father went to my grandmother's chicken coop to take two eggs for my mother to eat, and my grandmother scolded him all day long.

　　"You are precious, but when I gave birth to children, I was working on the farm after only three days, drinking watery porridge every day.

　　Now, why can't you do it just as well..." My father reluctantly returned the eggs.

　　My mother cried while feeding my brother.

　　I stepped forward to wipe her tears and she stared at me, saying softly, "It would have been so much better if you were a boy, then I wouldn't have to suffer like this." The next day, I went to the barber shop at the village entrance and cut my long hair into a crew cut.

　　I happily returned home and told my mother, "Look, I'm a boy now." My mother and grandmother scolded me in turns.

　　"Your hair was so long, you could have sold it for at least twenty yuan.

　　How stupid can you be!" "Even if you shaved your head bald, you still won't become a boy." After scolding me, my grandmother went to the barber shop to find the boss and get back the hair I had cut off.

　　After a heated argument, many people in the village found out about it.

　　Children of the same age mocked me, saying, "Not a boy, not a girl, Zhou Xiaoyan is a little monster." After the Chinese New Year, my brother turned six months old.

　　My parents decided to go to Zhejiang to work, leaving me with my grandmother.

　　Before they left, my mother held my hand with guilt and said, "I can't rest assured leaving your father alone over there, and your brother is too young, I dare not let your grandmother take care of him." "You have to be good at home, and I'll buy you candy when I come back."